是我自己得不到別人的認同......

還是我不能對別人的評核作出包容......

煩得有心飄燥.....請原諒小石不想說太多.....

只想在這裡向大家分享一首歌,

近來一聽會有'想哭'感覺的歌......

Can't Stop, Gotta Date With Hate

Lostprophets

Her eyes are open like a book
Her fingers stroke her hair to look
A moment feels so out of place
This will left standing in disgrace
Paint your fingernails at night
Style you hair in the bathroom light
Hatred never looked this good
Whoever thought it could

I don't wanna wait or leave it up to fate
'cause I just wanna watch you all night
Screaming
Andie, you goonie
Don't you wake me up, I don't want this dream to...
Andie, you goonie
Don't you wake me up, I don't want this dream to...
End

One kiss those lips could never lie
But I know something isn't right
Don't be fooled my friends aside
'cause I see nothing in those eyes
All said and done
This won't be fun
Make no mistake
Those smiles are fake

Don't wanna wait or leave it up to fate
'cause I just wanna watch you all night
Screaming
Andie, you goonie
Don't you wake me up, I don't want this dream to...
Andie, you goonie,
Don't you wake me up, I don't want this dream to...
End

But believe me, I know it will always be moving
I know we could find a key

Andie, you goonie
Don't you wake me up, I don't want this dream to...
Andie, you goonie
Don't you wake me up, I don't want this dream to...

All the times that we suffered this before
Never once did you ever close that door
All the make up cannot hide the fact
That you're gone and you're never coming back

遺憾自己沒有好好讀書,沒本事飛煌騰達,做一個有為青年...

到現在,發生特如其來的家變,沒有足夠的本錢照顧自己,照顧媽媽...

遺憾自己小時候的'屋村仔'性格,反叛無知,沒有好好珍惜婆婆的照療及包容...

到現在,角色轉變了...每次探訪,都需要自我介紹:'婆婆,我係邦仔呀,妳認得我嘛?'...

遺憾自己當初少年輕狂,花天酒地的日子...輕挑的態度...燥火的性格...慚慚將自己日積月累的人際網絡,建立的角色定位...完完全全作一個自我毀滅......

到現在,罪疚感驅使下...有時候街上碰到舊相識的朋友,連舉頭正視的勇氣也鼓不起...

遺憾自己用情不尊,從不尊重所愛過的,或愛過我的;自以為社會誠信是正比例,將自己的'底牌'豪不保留的坦出去......

到現在,要好像從新學習跟別人相處一樣,認識越深,心看得越清,越想保護自己...看見心儀的,越要左閃右避,甚至產生自卑感,不敢靠近......

錯了的這廿一年,所走錯的每段路,

相信已足夠我日後遇到錯節作反思的例子...

很喜歡一晚電視節目中李寧說的當中一句:

'錯節乃人生的一部分,有錯誤的人生才夠美滿...'

我會努力的!~!~!~!~!~!~!~ :)

p.s.第廿二年第一個遺憾...看不到My Chemical Romance的演唱會

一日不見,如隔三秋,五十天,差不多有廿五年......

先向對我抱怨'點解你成日唔update呀'既朋友致歉...

各位可怪我躲懶,而我的解釋是'我將應放左Xanga的努力放到工作上'.....haha~吹脹乎?

補足大家聖誕及新年快樂,

2007,多謝你給我的所有人和事,從中學會的道理,相信可終身受用...

2007,我亦希望你早走早著,一去不返...你給我的,我永遠不想再見...

新一年的短期目標,已達了一半,

Mission 1: English Course

今晚是第一堂,亦是我決定要不斷地進修自己的第一步

願各位祝我好運,為我祈禱,使我貧缺的資質加添些少力量

Misson 2: Guitar

荒廢了三年,把它全給忘記了,

小時候的音樂夢,現在要從新發起,有相當的難道

只當慢慢自習,學一門手藝罷了....

人事依舊糟;脾氣依舊差;虧欠依舊欠;環境依舊劣...

但我會依舊堅持,還要俾已前更努力!!!!!

我承認,在任何環境跟妳接觸,我會很避忌,很難為情...

我承認,我很怕見到妳,跟妳溝通...

我承認,在某地時候,我進退兩難...

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我承認,當所有妳給我的不安感覺減退後...我會因為妳而感到開心

請原諒我有時的不體諒,不體貼,不溫柔....等等等等....

始終...身份及距離,是要考慮的.....

對不起....